God~ "I never left [Jesus], and I never left you." him-"That makes no sense to me," he snapped. God~ "I know it doesn't, at least not yet. Will you at lest consider this: When all you can see is your pain, perhaps then y…

"It helps so much to be punished; it feels so kind, like the only gift I have to offer. I don't deserve to live and I want to show you I know that. I need you to see it on my face so you can receive some assurance, s…

"Have you cried over it yet?" "what?" "Have you cried over it being gone yet?" "Um, no, not yet. I am a little sad its gone, but I really like it the way it is now too." "Well, its really cute on you." I ran my fingers t…

So much has happened over the past couple of years, and I must admit I've let it get to me (how could anyone not? we are human, after all). But in the process of healing, in choosing to let myself feel pain and not let m…

I like school. I really do. I enjoy learning and neurological stimulation probably more than the average person and have a substantial love of books. I'm a compulsive note-taker and find myself writing down everything th…